A New Beginning

2007 marks a new beginning for everyone - not for me.

To me, advancing into 1st Jan 2007 is just the same like any other day. I still have to get to work early in the morning, make calls throughout the day from nine to six, dine in front of the TV after work at home, then watch the ceiling till the lids close to end yet another monotonous day.

Well, of course it didn't mean that I worked on 1st Jan - what I am trying to say is that I am not making any difference in my life, despite the significance of 2007 being the start of a new life. You are right - I do not have any new life to begin with in 2007.

It makes me wonder - how many of us actually dare to take the first step into a completely different world and start a new life.

I've always dreamed of becoming a writer. The path I took in the real world however, astrayed me from making my dream come true. Like a normal human being with emotions, the fist person I would always defend is myself of course - I pushed the blame to my parents. They have dreams of their own; and their dream is to have their children graduate from universities with a prestigious profession, like a doctor, or an engineer. Sad to say - this dream was shared only between the two of them.

As I get older, and my thoughts began to mature, I realised that my life lies entirely in my own hands. Who gets the real punishment when something goes wrong in my life? ME! It was me who did not stand up to my parents and tell them firmly that I want to become a writer. It was me who obeyed every single word they told me. It was me who did not fight for what I believe to be mine. It was me who allowed them to led me away from the path I have always - and still - dream of pursuing.

Looking at the classifieds and the job ad which shouted my dream back at me, I look back on all those years which I have spent mugging on those huge engineering textbooks and receiving astounding low grades for my language subjects - hesitation starts to settle in.

Should I take the first step back onto the path to dreams? Or should I just listen to my engineering- acquainted- common sense - no one will take an engineer without journalistic experience, so don't bother to write in for the job.

Life.....*sigh*

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