Green Rose

My mother introduced me to this intense drama. The plot is great, the cast is strong, the acting is awesome, and with the lead actor oozing immense charisma and charm in every scene, there is no reason not to watch it. I nodded my head then, thinking otherwise.

It's not that I do not trust my mother's choice of great dramas. My doubts actually lies within my loyalty towards Japanese Dramas - I am a true die-hard fan; although I limit myself to only certain genre of them. I find the strong portrayal of reality in Japanese dramas more captivating than the dramatic arrangements in Korean dramas.

Well...apparently after watching Green Rose, I have to drop my pride and apologise to all the Korean fans out there.

I managed to persuade my housemate to buy the set of VCDs. She had the urge to buy 'something' at that time. Unable to figure out which 'something' she should spend her money on, she turned to me for help. I immediately pointed to the set of 'Green Rose' VCDs lying silently before me, stacked in midst of the other popular Korean drama VCDS. She took a short glance at me before picking it up. "Are you sure?" Her eyes were questioning mine. I nodded and told her my mother's remarks. Without any second thought, she placed the box of VCD onto the counter and paid for it.

That was months ago.

Last week, being superbly bored at home, I decided to watch a video to pass the time. Looking through my own collection, I realised that I've watched most of the shows umpteen times. Re-watching them, once again, doesn't seem like an attractive idea. Until my eyes caught the 'Green Rose' VCD box sitting on the table - where my housemate last left it after the purchase.

I shall watch this show then. Even as I slot in the first piece of CD into the player, my mind was already anticipating boredom.

But...

The first scene caught my curiosity. Because like one of the very few Korean Dramas I love, "All In", this starts off with the leading male actor running through crowds of people bustling in the airport background. He seemed to be chased, and was racing against time in pursuit of something. The actor did amazing stunts like jumping over a line of trolleys, and swimming through the incoming swarm of people during the getaway. Finally, he hijacked a car from a couple about to be wed, and speed off.

We soon see the intensifying car chase between the man and the people chasing after him. Only now we know that he is a wanted criminal by the police. They are gaining upon him, but despite the many times they try to corner him, his determination wins his freedom. When the police finally succeeded in stopping him at the bridge, the man dragged himself out of the car, and even with many guns pointing at him, he launched himself upon the edge of the bridge.

He then tells his audience what is going through in his mind as he peers down at the deep vast ocean. His heart cries out painfully to his mother, and a woman named Oh Soo Ah. Different scenes from his memories flicker by on the screen, and you might start guessing that Oh Soo Ah is his lover.

Then the big question arises - what happened to him in the first place?

The director appears to hear your doubt, and rewinds the story back to a year ago. The man, called Li Joong Hyun, being just employed by one of the largest electronic companies in the city, SR, was in midst of celebration when he first met his future lover, Oh Soo Ah.

After a stormy incident whilst climbing a mountain for one of SR's orientation programmes, Joong Hyun and Soo Ah got together. The story was forwarded to a year later when the couple had been together for almost a year, and the intimacy between them suggested a possibility of exchanging marriage vows.

Soo Ah appeared to be the one who suggested the proposal of marriage to Joong Hyun. But the only problem that lies in their relationship is Joong Hyun's ignorance of Soo Ah's background. He confessed his insecurities to Soo Ah, and voiced out his discomfort about not being able to send his future wife straight to the doorstep of her family. He questions her sincerity in continuing their relationship, and feigns anger until she gives in, telling him to visit her at her home during her father's birthday later next week.

It was then we see Joong Hyun, nervous about meeting his father-in-law for the first time, showing up at Soo Ah's house, only to discover that she is the daughter of SR's CEO. Feeling uneasy and immensely uncomfortable about the environment he was unprepared for, he left with the gift that his mother had spent the entire night before, preparing it for his visit.

After a couple of persuasions, Soo Ah managed to answer all the insecurities and doubts in Joong Hyun. And as a secret between themselves, they exchanged vows of eternal love before the sunset view. The same one that emerges when they first got together.

The cycle of unhappy events begin to take place after this.

We then see Joong Hyun being tricked into becoming a scapegoat for attempted murder of Soo Ah's father. The director show us 3 suspicious characters involved in the crime, the Finance Manager, the Marketing Manager, and the CEO's driver. The real murderer was not revealed till the very end, so throughout the show, the audience will be stuck making guesses among the 3 suspects.

It was an attempted murder because Soo Ah's father did not die from the incident, but saved by Joong Hyun, who slipped into unconsciousness after being knocked out.

The crime he was alleged to have committed sent Joong Hyun behind bars. Seeing how devastated and lost his son became, the mother decided to pursue all means in helping prove his innocence, and finally resort to committing suicide. The authorities released Joong Hyun for a few days to finish his filial business at his mother's wake and funeral. This indirectly provides a chance for Joong Hyun to slip out of the police radar, and find the real murderer to clear the charges tied to his name.

However, the Gods appeared to be against him when he was almost caught by the police. With them gaining hard on him, he managed to get only a few clues to the puzzle. On the verge of getting arrested for breaking out of prison, he was still unable to see the face of the real murderer.

We were then taken back to the scene from the very beginning where Joong Hyun jumps off the bridge into the freezing waters. We see him drowning in fury, for the injustice that he received, and also in grief, for his mother's death and his separation from Soo Ah.

Meanwhile, Soo Ah, who is painfully accepting the possibility of her father becoming a vegetable, and the reality of Joong Hyun's arrrest, then fell into a deep hole of depression state upon learning Joong Hyun's sudden death.

However, with a twist of fate, or maybe under God's will, Joong Hyun actually survived the fall and escaped to China.

To cut the story short, the 'Green Rose' is likely a recount of 'The Count of Monte Cristo'. Joong Hyun went through many hurdles, and finally rise to become a respectable figure in the business world of Shanghai. With the new name he acquired, and some good friends, he returns to Korea to implement his plan of revenge.

Ko Soo plays the role of a Mr. Nice Guy, Lee Joong Hyun, who eventually turned vengeful because of all the painful and unhappy events he experienced . His acting skills were tested when his character was arrested, when he learned of his mother's death in jail, and when he stands before his lover, for the first time after years of feigning death, but pretends not knowing her. Every heartache that he displayed, whether through his eyes, his actions, or facial expressions. was transmitted directly to his audience, and it is really hard not to feel for him.

Lee Da Hae is also perfect as Oh Soo Ah who is a rose amongst the thorns in the drama. She manages the elegance and gentleness of Soo Ah very well. The Korean fashion had once again project its uniqueness through Soo Ah's clothing line.

The bad guys of the drama played their parts well, and because of this, I have to say that the cast of this drama is truly strong.

The director was patient in telling the story, thus the drama was driven at a very spectacular pace. It unfolds with an unexpected twist, and leaves a powerful impression in the audience when the final credits rolled up.

It's a serious drama, with suspense and romance. And I really enjoyed the originality.

Feel the Korean Wave

Unlike most of my close friends, I get the feel of the Korean Wave only once in a while. If I happen to watch, very willingly, one of the nice Korean dramas, and get hooked on the casting actor or actress, the wave hits me. After several incidents of the same kind, I compiled a list of signs and symptoms of me catching the Korean fever.

Sign 1. Watch the show over and over and over again.
Effect: Will punctuate a few lines from the drama script in all my daily conversations.

Sign 2. Visit all the drama related / actor or actress related websites.
Effect: An instant boost in the Internet and electric bills.

Sign 3. Download songs from the Drama's soundtrack and listen to them most of the time when awake.
Effect: Start singing their songs when bathing and exercising. (Even when Korean is a foreign language to me).

Sign 4. Watch variety shows related to the Drama as well as its casting actors/actresses. Then start to watch ALL video clips (eg. commercials, MTV) of the same actors/actresses.
Effect: More daily discussions about the Drama, especially the actors...and the actresses.

Sign 5. Download pictures related to the drama, actors, actresses.
Effect: Grab any chance to hang them up on my price possessions - bedroom wall, mobile phone, desktop, etc.

Sign 6. Look up on other dramas and movies starring either the same actor or actress.
Effect: Decreasing numbers in the bank account due to spending lavishly on VCDs and DVDs.

It's difficult not becoming a guru at the end of all the effortless study. I even feel proud being this specialist of a particular drama or the biology of some actor. But the awesome feeling doesn't last very long. Once reality seeps in, I find my logic self laughing hard at my emotional self on all the time wasted on such unrealistic ridiculous study.

But reality doesn't settle in me for long too. Strange, yet true. Because once another Drama sparked the interest in me, the cycle starts all over again. This time, the obsession might start with a Taiwanese Drama or Japanese Drama. It will take quite a long time before I regain the Korean thing again.

Well, I would like to enjoy the fantasies of a young girl while I'm still allowed to.

La la la Love Song

Does the title sound familiar?

Well, you might recollect the strong relation it has with Mr. Takuya Kimura, and you are right! It's the theme song to one of his drama serials - Long Vacation. I just bought the VCD set last Monday, right after my Japanese test, and finished watching it yesterday.

I remember wanting to watch this particular serial when I was still wearing uniform to attend classes at college. At that time, this show was aired on TV during the late night, and alas, because most of my time was spent catching up with studies, I was unable to catch more than just the first episode of the entire serial.

Now, I am glad to have watched the entire show!

It's about a 30-plus year old model, Minami, who lost her bridgroom on her wedding day. You see her running down the streets in the traditional Japanese Wedding gown, as if racing against time for something. You are guessing that Mr. Kimura might be the groom, and he has overslept. Turns out that Kimura's character, Senna, is actually the roommate of Minami's missing groom. Her presence shocked Senna that morning, and due to such unforeseen circumstances, he was unable to perform well at his piano recital that very same morning.

The story began with these 2 people, how they met and eventually end up living under the same roof - yes, a man and a woman. It shouldn't be criticised at because Minami is actually much older than Senna, despite her sometimes immature mannerisms. They are seen as siblings in the beginning of the show.

Towards the end, they start to show affection for each other, and gradually find a soulmate and also a life-long companion in each other.

I will have to give this show a range of 8-9 as a verdict because the script was unique, the directing was simple and fun, and the cast's performance was superb; they are all well-known actors and actresses at their time.

The missing point was caused by the few naggy scenes between the main couple at the later parts of the serial - both characters were confused and emotionally tormented by many misunderstandings. The sorting out took many turns, which includes the usual "boy has a sudden rush to see the girl, and tell her how he feels, but pulls back on his urge when he sees another boy with her". It was the cycle of realisation of true love which is then lost due to insecurity, and then found again.

I guess the best scenes were when Minami showed up for the first time before Senna, how Senna apologises to her through playing the birthday song on the piano, and the few affectionate scenes between them. The messages delivered from these scene grabs your attention to the screen so much, you just react as you feel from the images.

The last scene was also my favourite; when the couple are smiling and running, hand in hand, towards a church to get married. Their smiles show how genuinely bliss their lives are, now that they have found each other.

The music throughout the entire show touches every layer of your emotions too - you are overwhelmed with sorrow and sympathy for Minami when Senna plays the Birthday song on his piano as form of an apology to Minami; you get goosebumps when they kissed passionately before the sparkles of the fireworks; and you laughed hard with tears when they confessed their love for each other on top of the world.

La la la Love song truly inspires the audience, because it does brings out the simplicities of love and also of everyday life through its peaceful cheerful tune.

Lastly, I sincerely love the script of this entire serial. The conversations exchange between the 2 main characters of the story are also suitable as quotes of life experience. I have to salute the scriptwriter for this.

~ If you are face with a sudden downfall in your life, and no matter what you do nothing seems to change for the better, take this period of time as a long vacation bequeath from God. During this time, you can try to make the best out of it, learn new things, or simply relax yourself. Let God take care of the rest, and things will slowly start to take a different turn...~ Long Vacation

How to love a Dinosaur?

Beauty lies within the most natural smile of a person - concludes the Japanese drama, "In Love With Dinosaur".

Hard to imagine a dashing popular comedic writer falling in love with a woman who has absolutely no appeal in appearance. Even harder to imagine was the story has the male lead actually proposed marraige to the same woman with a reason stemming from an adoration of her smile and inner beauty. Yet, I realised, only much later, that the drama was scripted base on a true love story between a variety- show writer and a female comedian - whose looks won as much laughter as the actress playing the role in the drama.

Most of such comedies have the less appearance of character morphing into a stunning person with a sudden fashionable sense. But this drama totally caught me off guard - not only did the female lead remained beautiful only from the inside, she was happily married to the handsome writer with 2 children.

The story captured me from the start till the end, and I love the concept a lot. It was a very unique love story. Although it portrays a certain degree of reality (no matter how much we yearn to we can never resemble the models in fashion magazines), yet there is also a tinge of fiction - we are so blinded by appearances and stereotyping that loving someone for their inner beauty is becoming such a fantasy only told in stories and drama serials. A paradox, I would say.

Despite all the arguments, I still find the lovestory refreshingly innocent and beautiful. It is the innocence of such love that captures the attention of most women living in this century; those who are still single and longing for a soulmate. We've seen enough breakups to last us a lifetime, and we hardly find the words 'ever after' as promising as before. The conclusion of the drama lends us the courage to once again find the light and warmth for our love lives.

The fact that this drama is telling a story of 2 soulmates who actually found themselve in this real world binds me more to it. I was truly touched to the core and can never stop thinking about the marvel of it. The beauty of the story is truly beyond words. If there is a chance, I would love to meet the couple and congratulate them for finding each other. The path to discovery must have truly been exciting and adventurous.

Watch the show if you have the fate to come across it someday.

Thoughts... it's a rainy day

What am I doing?
Where should I go?
Which path should I take?
What future should I have?
What life should I lead?

Lost.

The world is moving on even without me following it.
It never stops for even a second to let me reconsider the choices I make.
It never allows me to catch up.
Or rather, it's me who never seems to catch up with its footsteps.

What am I doing?

The clock is ticking and I'm still stuck on the same ground.

What should I do?

I have many things to fulfil but yet no courage to accomplish any.
I yearn to do many things, but never seem able to break free from the clutches of my worry.

Am I to admit defeat now and live an empty listless life?

Staying rooted is more difficult than being rooted off

The big "E" has done it again - another plant rooted off the ground. Thing is, this time the growing plant does not even have enough time to stretch its roots deep into the soil.

Since my life in the new yet monotonous environment, not even for a year, I have witness 3 rooting ceremonies. The first one was performed with not a tinge of humanity, the second was considered a suicidal sort, while the last one happened within a split of second (it was rather dramatic, I can asure you).

The soil seemed to be prosperous in the beginning. But as my roots dug deeper into the ground, the wretched stench hidden beneath layers of fertile soil surfaced; as my stem shot nearer to the skies the entire field became more visible. Everything nice and wonderful seemed to disappear into a wisp of thin air.

I see plants with flowers - the magnificent colours of the petals seemed so likeable and pretty. Their stems are bursting with turgidity - signifying the abundance of nutrients they have sucked from the soil; their green leaves are fluttering peacefully in the gentle breeze - signifying the large amounts of water they have exhausted from their fellow plants and how good their growing spot is when it comes to capturing the sunlight.

Yet, I also see another population of plants shrivelling beneath - they appear to have received same amount of water, sunlight, nutrients as the energetic flowering plants. But from the way they are hiding away indignantly into the overpowering shadows, we see a different story. Once these die off, the soil replenishes its nutrients to grow more flowering plants.

I am not sure when one of these plants will start to divert me from reaching the sun and the skies. But the fight to get the most nutrients, water and sunlight will exist until the final day comes.

I miss the old times, when we laughed sharing the funniest moments in the boring environment. Yet, everything happens for a reason and things always change for the better - never for the worst. So all the best to my dear friend - I saw your strength and courage today which I believe will grow within you. Take care and I hope our friendship will never falter.

MY - day

It was my birthday a day ago and I did the most unusual thing on that special day - I stayed at home, the entire day, watching drama serials and enjoyed being a couch potato throughout the 13- episode series.

I had no urge to venture beyond the premises of my flat, and no thoughts of going anywhere except staying in front of the tv set. Weird it must have seemed but the sofa appeared to capture more of my attention than Orchard Road.

I never like to remind my close friends and even family members of the date. I might be yearning for a little surprise to spice up my horribly boring life, or it could have been my shy- little self not knowing how to give away such reminders without seeming proud. It could have been just my pride - telling people when is your birthday is like begging them to remember showering you with gifts.

Truth is, I get embarassed whenever someone wishes me a "Happy Birthday" - I wouldn't know what to say. When I receive gifts, all I can think of is replying with lots of "thank you" - I get angry at myself because I know that the mere 2 words can never accurately express the joy I feel. But "thank you " is all I can ever think of at spur of the moment.

2 days before my actual birthday, I receive a grand surprise from my colleagues. It came so sudden I did not have time to prepare for it. They sang the song and I receive the huge chocolate cake from them without saying anything - as usual, I didn't know what to say. Dumbfounded, you might think, but I was actually trying hard to search for the right words to say.

Seconds passed - I'm asked to make a wish. I agreed, still not knowing what to say, and closed my eyes to make the special wish (can't say it out or it won't come true). Then I wait for the flashes from the camera to stop before I blow out the candles. More flashes ignited the dark room - and I still can't find something to say except "Thank you so much!".

They waited as if for me to say something, while I waited for them to tell me what to do. Another few seconds passed, I gave up trying to find the right word - "Erm, I'm suppose to cut the cake right?"

My boss couldn't hold back his toungue and bursted out "My God." Everyone shrieked with laughter. Just one of those moments which I wish I could find something nice to say to everyone but I can't.

On the actual day, my housemates prepared a cake for me too. As usual, I could say nothing except "Thank you" throughout the entire session.

My birthday came and went. I don't really feel it a special day because my parents calls me very often, and I frequently spend time with my friends. However, I mark it as "MY" day because I was born during the date. And also a date to remind me that I'm officially a year older, and another reason to find more ways to live life to the fullest.

My Sober Self

How do you know if you are drunk? From TV shows and drama serials, it seems that eccentric bahaviour and weird mannerisms surface once a person gets drunk. So when you are drunk you will act weird. If you don't, you are disobeying the rules of life. Life says - once drunk, act weird.

I never believed that at all - until last night. I wouldn't say that I acted weird - I did not strip myself naked in front of everyone, nor did I try to kiss whoever came into my sight. No. I just laughed and talked. But, the difference between my sober self and drunkard self is the latter was more real than the former.

Once you drink enough to make your head weigh like tons, you are already towards a drunk state. The symptoms can be quite prominent - first stage is always a rush of heat to the face then a wave of dizziness hits the head. These creeps slowly into you, like a thief trying to rob you of your consciousness. If you let your guard down and continue sipping, consciousness will slowly be replaced by invisible steel bars.

Next stage towards drunk state - hammering in the head. With all the steel bars stored inside your head, it is a huge wastage if they are not transformed into something useful. Thus hammering starts. At this state of mind, you can't think. You might try to, but you would not be able to do so. To minimise the effect of all the hammering, you might as well sort the easiest remedy - not to think at all.

Thus, the so call "weird mannerisms" surface. You let yourself go freely - you start to voice your thoughts (deeply buried at the back of your head), you act as your mind tells you to or as you feel like (without thinking of any consequences), and either you keep the smiles on your face, laugh without knowing the real reason, or cry a sea of tears.

After last night's experience with the magical drink, I realised our drunk selves might be our 'true' selves. The world is a difficult place to live in, and to survive, there is a likelihood of us turning into cold and harsh robots with fake identities. We start to lose our true selves, or rather, more accurately, turn away from being who we are.

Last night, I kept the smiles on my face - which is what I seldom do when sober. The world to me is too harsh, and I enjoy living in the world of Walt Disney. I was more confident and so sure of myself when drunk - no longer a timid creature hiding behind layers of various personalities. I was even braver than usual and I ignored all sarcasms thrown at me. For a while, I never knew I was such a superwoman. I am actually the person whom I have always wanted to be.

Amazing.

The road to self discovery is truly amazing. I am glad my parents talked me into staying - thank you meee and dae-dee - I am now happily experiencing the wonders of life. And my dream is slowly becoming a reality.



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Agree?

I realised that the most difficult task for us is the ability to live amongst ourselves and stay happy everyday. I know that I spend 3/4 of my life complaining about the unfairness in life which is usually caused by another fellow being. Just today, I realised that I am not alone.

My friend was washed over by frustration when her supervisor doubted her ability to work with independence. She has her own reasons to be angry - to her, the man unconsciously insulted her capability. The man, on the other hand, being overly worried about the progress of the project, has his own reasons to say what he had said - although he puts it together in a wrong manner. Listening to her story, and trying to be in her supervisor's shoes at the same time, it dawned upon me how difficult it is actually to get 2 people to agree on the same thing.

We all have different pasts and experiences to lead us to the way we are now. And thus, the underlying differences in our thoughts. Even for twins, who shares similar features, have a diversity in thoughts and personalities. Thus, unless there is a point of compromise or mutual understanding between 2 parties, we will always be falling into an endless pitch.

All this while, I have been learning how to feel for others - not to compromise nor to seek mutual understanding - but to keep my mind healthy. If I understood the reason behind someone's harsh tone or incorrigible words, it acts as an excuse to keep the rage from infiltrating my mind.

People can agree on the same thing - but it always happens after a long duel. Such dramas exhaust the mind and is unhealthy for a growing human spirit. I will feel cold and unwell while struggling and coping with these emotional stresses. Worse, I might even reach a state of depression.

I hate knowing when someone misunderstood my actions and words. My mind is filled with scenarios of me succeeding in making people accept my thoughts and philosophies - the more I yearn for them to happen and it doesn't, I resort to frustration. In the end, exhausting my mind and body, I achieve nothing except precious time wasted.

I learnt to let go of the struggle of proving that I can change a person's thoughts. I accepted the one of the reality bites of life. Rather than encouraging people to change for me, why not be more sensitive to the roots of their thinking and emotions, take an understanding approach, thus turning away from rage and free your mind for other important things in life.

Despite the many people I tried to share this emotional conquest with, it still boils down to the same problem - people don't agree that easily. It happened when my brother tries to persuade our dad into accepting the fact that he is not a doctor- material. It happened when I tried to explain my reactions to some difficult situations. It happened when my sister tries to make us understand why she had decided to quit school and start working at an early stage. It happens all the time to everyone.

In the end, although acceptance usually stings, the pain is short term and happiness eventually falls into place more easily. I want to be a happy person because I am living my own life. If I can smile everyday, why not?

Always look on the bright side of life

I am a pessimist.

For me, it is always easy to tell someone who is feeling down to look on the bright side; but when trying to apply the same theory to your life - it never works. Not because it cannot be applied here, but rather I don't know how to do so.

I remember reading a book that explains why we are always able to give advice but never able to receive them the same way. When God created man, he figured that it would be a good thing to actually hang an invisible balance of thoughts on man's shoulders. Thoughts of reflection of his own actions should be right in front of his eyes, so that man can clearly see it and improve on his behaviour. Whereas thoughts about others' behaviour should be kept on the other end of the balance - less prominent to the eye.

To cut the story short, a mistake was made, and we all end up having self- reflection thoughts kept away from our own eyes. And in conclusion, no man is able to see themselves as clearly as they are able to judge others.

I am always telling my friends under depression to look on the bright side of things, and events always happens for a good reason. But then I realised - the further you walk down the path of life, the more difficult it is to actually keep yourself happy and smile for the felt of inner- happiness.

It is always a good thing to learn how to view things positively and to accept changes without bearing grudges towards them.

I have already started the journey to this enlightenment, but fell out of the path since I've entered into the harsh reality of working life. Worth the while to find a compass to lead me back into the right direction again.

Wish me luck!

A New Beginning

2007 marks a new beginning for everyone - not for me.

To me, advancing into 1st Jan 2007 is just the same like any other day. I still have to get to work early in the morning, make calls throughout the day from nine to six, dine in front of the TV after work at home, then watch the ceiling till the lids close to end yet another monotonous day.

Well, of course it didn't mean that I worked on 1st Jan - what I am trying to say is that I am not making any difference in my life, despite the significance of 2007 being the start of a new life. You are right - I do not have any new life to begin with in 2007.

It makes me wonder - how many of us actually dare to take the first step into a completely different world and start a new life.

I've always dreamed of becoming a writer. The path I took in the real world however, astrayed me from making my dream come true. Like a normal human being with emotions, the fist person I would always defend is myself of course - I pushed the blame to my parents. They have dreams of their own; and their dream is to have their children graduate from universities with a prestigious profession, like a doctor, or an engineer. Sad to say - this dream was shared only between the two of them.

As I get older, and my thoughts began to mature, I realised that my life lies entirely in my own hands. Who gets the real punishment when something goes wrong in my life? ME! It was me who did not stand up to my parents and tell them firmly that I want to become a writer. It was me who obeyed every single word they told me. It was me who did not fight for what I believe to be mine. It was me who allowed them to led me away from the path I have always - and still - dream of pursuing.

Looking at the classifieds and the job ad which shouted my dream back at me, I look back on all those years which I have spent mugging on those huge engineering textbooks and receiving astounding low grades for my language subjects - hesitation starts to settle in.

Should I take the first step back onto the path to dreams? Or should I just listen to my engineering- acquainted- common sense - no one will take an engineer without journalistic experience, so don't bother to write in for the job.

Life.....*sigh*

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